Okaayy... I don't feel like doing any studying now, so here I am talking about my boring life again. I just realised I didn't have to do the line by line thing while blogging. Found the problem already. Or is it easier to read that way?
I guess I've kinda found myself over the last few weeks, and I 've already promised myself not to emo in front of anyone ever again. I guess that's good, though I wonder, is this what I should do? All I want is to be happy, to make the people around me happy. Is this too much to ask? Well, making others happy... It's kinda hard, me being me. I know I'm quiet and all that, and usually just some backup person or whatever, but yeah. I'll be content to know that I've actually changed someone's life in a good way, that I'm actually really sincerely wanted, instead of always being a backup, like how I've always been. I think I've been forcing myself to smile always, ohkay that's good, but it's tiring sometimes. But at least that way I can stop myself from getting depressed, and losing myself all over again. Ohh what am I saying? But yeah, if only people would just accept me for who I am, instead of trying to change me, or throwing me away altogether. I've gotten pretty used to that, but it's still really depressing sometimes. Yeah I know I'm quiet and boring, and that's probably what's causing all the problems in my life, but that's just me. And some people think that I'm just like that and never get to know me more, so they're stuck with the impression that I'm still as quiet as before, and no one actually expects anything from me cause yeah, they think I'm just... like that.
Well, I'm still learning to be stronger, to look at the bright side of life, and I guess it helps, I'm over my depression, and I hope it't won't ever come back again. Annd... I think Shugo Chara contributed to some of this, cuz it has stuff that we can learn from, like not giving up and all that. But I still really hope one day, I can be accepted for who I am, not cause of looks, but for me being me, and that I can make a difference in someone's life.
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