& i'm funny
Friday, September 24, 2010 @3:50 PM
hi.it's finally Friday.
TGIF.
this week has been blah.
lol sorry about that. just that I'm not in a really good mood right now cause the internet has some problem. can't access certain websites. argh. but anyway.
so Saturday I spent my whole day at home doing homework and watching BOF, I think.
Sunday, church choir presentation :D dumdeedum [: the presentation itself wasn't that good, but the other parts of the morning that I shant mention were good :D
heehs.
then the weekdays... I've been really tired. so glad it's friday today, so I can sleep in tomorrow.
there's actually nothing much to blog about. hmm. I tried to make myself only go online after 8pm for like a while, but as you can see I'm already online, wasting my time. oh well. I kinda slept late yesterday writing notes for geog. my arm almost died. haha. hmm.
I suppose I've been feeling lonely again. Something has changed, hasn't it? I'm not getting quieter... right...? ah gosh. maybe that's it. so yeah in class I only have like 3 closer friends, and most of the time they hang out with their other closer friends. so what does that make me? yeah, say it. a loner. like my primary school days all over again. just that it's slightly better. I'm being forgotten too much eh? yeah, unfortunately. truthfully, I envy the friendships in 2F. I mean like, well, looking from an outsider's view, they like to be in cliques and are so close to their cliques, if not, close friends. I always see them with the same people. but then my class, it's more of a random thing. ah, I don't know how to explain, but it's like... uhh... I don't know. we mix around with other classmates and not stick with our close friends all the time? ohkay maybe that's not the case. maybe this all aren't true. but that's my opinion.
I've always wanted to have a friend who I can tell everything to and would tell everything to me, someone who I would always hang out with, someone I'm totally comfortable with and can go crazy with, someone who would be sad when I don't come to school and help collect homework and notes etcetc. ah well. it doesn't matter. it doesn't matter anymore.
I think I should stop rambling on and on with my nonsense and go study. sigh. ohkays then.
byebyes.