& I die a little every time we're in the air, and I live a little more at the same time when we're there.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011 @10:38 PM
hello.okay.
so.
the past few days have been sorta fine I guess.
nothing much.
band on monday and today.
I really really hope we're improving.
ONE WEEK TO SYF :O
gah.
I'm scared already.
especially after hearing about NHHS one girl fell and yeah now she can't play for SYF.
after practicing so hard.
if it were me, I'd be so devastated.
seriously.
now I feel like hiding at home till SYF.
lol.
then again, my house can be dangerous too.
haha. kidding.
anyway.
geography test today.
let's see if I'm able to pull up my CH marks.
the test was manageable,
but I'm not very sure cause it's like only the first geog test so I don't really know the standard.
ah well.
I'm really driving myself insane with my wild thoughts and crazy emotions.
meh.
when will things go back to the way it was?
okay.
maybe it's just me. nothing has changed.
or is it?
I just get so frustrated sometimes.
yet there is nothing I can do about it.
blah.
anyway.
I'm not giving in.
no way.
"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31
hahaha. my all time favorite verse.
I know I wrote it before.
just felt like writing it again.
to remind/reassure myself I guess.
I suppose I should stop depending on myself like what I've been doing recently.
maybe I'll then be able to find direction.
alright.
it's late already.
exactly 1 week later,
SYF would have already been over.
and I would either be so incredibly high and happy,
or devastated.
it's so hard to imagine, really.
that one week from now...
okay.
I think I should go get some sleep.
byees(: