HAPPY NEW YEAR :D it's 2012 o.o too fast, really. it seems though not long ago was just sec 1. now I'm sec 4. o levels year. gah. and I'm gonna be 16 omg I feel so old /: schools starting. tomorrow's the last day of holidays. GOSH I'M NOT READY SERIOUSLY. I want some more holidays ): OMG I'M SO OLD ALREADY. WHY SO FAST. k anyway, I'm hoping 2012 will be a better year, and sure I know there will be ups and downs, I'm hoping that I can stay strong and never take any moment forgranted.
I'm kinda afraid actually. I'm scared that I'll lose hope all over again and give in to my depression. I'm scared of the pain, and what it'll make me do. I don't want to feel so lost and alone again. I don't want to hate myself so much anymore. sigh. but yeah. I'm gonna stay strong, I'm not gonna give in. easy for me to say when everything's alright. but I really don't wanna feel so hopeless again.
hmmm so what have I been doing the past week? oh LOL christmas night, my washing machine broke down. I found my mum washing everything by hand alone downstairs, so I helped her. quite fun actually. but really tiring. took a few hours to get everything clean and hung up. ah well. what a nice thing to do on a christmas night. the next day, which was monday, I stayed home all day and watched 3 movies on tv. yeah nothing much. wednesday and friday there was band. which was fine. and ahha I finally asked Mrs Chua to help me fix my fhorn. it has had a really slow key since before concert. and I waited and waited, thinking that it'll go away. but it didn't. and it affected my playing. and I couldn't stand it anymore so I asked Mrs Chua. and wow she fixed it in a few minutes. ah I suppose I should've asked her a long time ago. oh well it's fixed now :D and I can play properly already yay~
hmmm saturday, which was yesterday, there was a YF thanksgiving dinner. so I went, the last YF of the year. and yay there was the... uhhh what's it called... the... chicken curry in the bread thing. love that :D but I suppose it'll seem abit weird if I just kept taking the curry... so ah I didn't take a lot. but oh well. then sharing and games and stuff... hmm yeah so it was great that night (: then after that we went to watch night service at TA. like last year (: spent the last few minutes of my year, and the start of the new year, at church with God. then by the time I got home, it was like 1245am? yeah. by the time I slept it was 2+ am already. and now I'm so freaking tired. went to church this morning, combined service. and... heh. I was so tired that I kinda fell asleep during sermon /: hmm. oh well. went home after that and had cup noodles for lunch haha. need to sleep earlier today to catch up on sleep and fix my body clock. I'd be doomed if there was school tomorrow, but good thing there's still one day.
so yup. I don't know if I'm looking forward to school. excited, but nervous. I really really really really really hope that next year will go well. after all, it's my last year in fairfield. it's been great, time has passed so fast, so yeah whatever it is, I trust that God will help me through, and everything'll be alright, eventually (:
mkay. want to read. probably won't be blogging much less once school starts so yeah. byees :D
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