& who wants fish? Sunday, October 13, 2013 @9:11 PM
in all honesty
I'm lost
torn between what I'm expected to be
what is expected of me
but why
just why won't people understand
I'M JUST INCAPABLE
incapable of handling all this shit
all these things I allowed myself to carry
I thought I could carry
but no
somewhere along the line
we went wrong
I don't know how
I don't know why
why does this keep happening
I never wanted to be a burden to you
I never wanted to be the one that made you sad
I wanted to be the one you went to for comfort
like what I once was to you
but no
it's probably just me
and the way I manage my relationships
I don't know how to manage them
and sure as I might want to let go and let you be free and happy again
I can't
because I'm selfish
I don't want you to tell others your problems
but I am the problem
yup how selfish I am
thank you very much
by promising whatever you promised
you're chaining yourself to me
chaining yourself and locking yourself up and depriving yourself of happiness
I want to warn you before it's too late
but I can't
what will happen to me then?
I can't be alone
yep this is the selfish me sprouting up again
I'm here
waiting
thinking
knowing that you could be better off without me
you would be better off without me
but me without you
is nothing
no matter
since when did my thoughts matter anyway?
I must be dreaming
go figure
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& JUST ME, Étoile ★
G R A C E G U A N ♥ the original grace
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