& etude
Saturday, July 5, 2014 @5:07 PM
heylo heylo
haven't been here in a while but
I just had to get stuff off my chest
hahaha they aren't bad things
just an experience that I have to
write somewhere
so
from the title I guess you could tell what it is about
etude!!!!
band concert :)))
it was just yesterday and oh my I had so much fun
so many feels
today I woke up with the blues cause well
that's always what happens the next day after an amazing event ends
cause
you don't want it to end
and what's more is that this is really final
cause it's the last year I'll be doing this as a member of NJCSB
I mean I could always come back and play as alumni (and I want to)
but it's not the same
and what's more is that I'm so much more tied to this concert compared to last year's because
I did so much more
as a horn SL and a SBL
in which both really stressed me out a lot
and now,
it's over
my duties as SBL are done
except perhaps coaching future SBLs or something?
haha
as an SL I'm not done yet cause we haven't officially stepped down
and there's still an exchange with MJ coming up
so yup!
hmmmmm
I shall move on to the concert
so.
as a SBL,
we had to arrange scores, plan practices, teach players, put everything together etc
and me being me,
I'm more of a follower
so arranging scores was okay
but what really scared me was the arranging practices
I totally have no experience in this
like when to put the practices?
do I ask them when they're free first or plan the dates first??
what????
how am I gonna ask them??
so the first time I did this,
I nearly died
it was stressful enough asking on the whatsapp group HAHA
really I was so so so so stressed
especially the first time
oh damn
but finally it got a little easier after a few times :)
and really, really have to thank people like Norman, Yunchu and Yida who reply to my messages
especially with a smiley face
oh gosh
maybe to some people it isn't anything,
but to me it's really like a flood of relief
so that's planning practices
there's teaching them too
ie conducting/leading/guiding the practices
and I can't even do that within my own section,
what more a whole lot of people from different sections that I barely talk to
it was tough and scary
but eventually it got a little better
I can't say that I'm good at it
but at least there's an improvement and I actually dare to take the lead :)
there were the props, which I didn't mind at all
cause I have so much weird rubbish at home that came into handy for this LOL
haha
although for some stuff it was tough deciding what we need or where to get certain things
and dance!
I was more in charge of Summer Nights
damn the JH kept complaining
forever complaining from the moment I set up the whatsapp group LOL
which crushed my morale so much but I really tried to remain strong
and eventually
yay
we all did well
and mind you, I can't dance
really
body coordination like negative 1
and want me to teach people???
what??
but with Norman and Huiling's help,
yay it went well :)))
and HAHAHA acting
oh gosh how did we manage to choose 2 people that can't really act??
anyway thanks to Huiling and Wenyu
our acting was decent
hahaha
and so
yesterday on the day itself
during the rehearsal we screwed up a bit LOL
exited stage the wrong way etc etc
JH guy dancers didn't even come in for the first dance
oh gosh LOL
it was so messy
and we hadn't had time to fix the props and all!!
oh gosh
but
for our final performance
it was AMAZING!!!!!! :D
Norman and I didn't screw up at all
and he played his solo well!
and JH dancers did well
and so did the counting stars people damn they're good
and Biao Guo's solo was amazing :))
and stage band sounded great!
and oh man oh man it was just... WOW
WOW
WOW
WOW
WOW
WOW
I can't even
oh man
hahahahhahah
I love them all :)))
previous SBL yitung is proud of us :')
I still can't get over how there are no more stage band practices
no more need to stress about acting and getting everyone down for practice
omg
I just can't believe it's over
and honestly it has helped me grow so much
in my leading and all
given me more confidence
and I don't think I'll be so scared to do all this the next time
thinking about it, just the day before concert,
I was stressing out about stage band especially the props haha
and I broke down
I mean like it's such an absolutely tiny matter
but yet I just cried so much
like too much for something small like this
and I realised
it's probably the stress I've built up the entire month of June holidays
I mean like
normally I ignore my phone the whole day
but during then I constantly checked it,
afraid that some stage band stuff will pop up
and I remember feeling that the entire month I haven't been able to completely relax
like there was always something there bothering me
and when I'm free I'm not supposed to be doing nothing, but I'm supposed to be zenning on stage band
and omg
it's over
it's over
it's over
and I can't help but feel sad
cause it has been a great experience
I had fun acting up there :)
I can't believe myself
and moving on to SL
compared to being SBL
it's wayyyy more slack
just admin stuff, relaying messages, collecting stuff
and conducting LOL
even at the start of this year I didn't dare to conduct
left it all to Isaac
the most I took is warmups hahaha
but
after this June holidays
this crazy month of stage band
for the first time ever last week (or was it the week before?)
I actually took the entire sectionals
okay not as good as previous seniors
but at least it was something :)
(told ya stage band in June really changed me LOL)
hmmmm
I wonder if I'll dare to conduct during the exchange with MJ
I wonder if I'll dare to conduct for choir practice
hmmmmmmmm
haha anyway!
I'm gonna miss band so damn much ):
I'll miss my horn
I'll miss my section
I mean like I really enjoy playing my horn even though it's just for practices
and assem too
it's tiring always having to wake up at 545am just to reach at 7am
but
I'll miss it
just playing together every morning
it's great
and band lunch on saturdays!!!!
oh man I'll miss hanging out with all of them funny band peeps
they're so hilarious
and so great to talk to
oh man I'll miss them so much
and even went for a movie with a few of them!
oh it was fun...
and band camp...
and omg omg
I suddenly remember
before the concert my lips were like crap and my tougue had this painful swollen thing
but just before the concert
the painful swollen thing miraculously disappeared O:
must be the work of God
and strangely hahaha after concert, today,
my lips are no longer crappy
why is that?
I mean like the concert has ended for goodness sakes!
my lips should have been better before hahaah
but at least we managed to play well
I think we sounded good :)
yay yay
OMG I'LL MISS BAND SO MUCH ):
NOOOOOOOOOOO
I DON'T WANNA STEP DOWN AND GO FOR A's D:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
and I'll miss
I don't know what I'm doing
I mean like there's such a low chance where we could ever
I mean
yeah
and I'm just hoping
hoping
dreaming
I mean like
I don't know what to think
I know I'm sure on my side
but
hmm
hahaha I don't even think you'll understand
but really
won't get to meet much now
I'll just
wait and see
x
hahaha on to CT results!!!
hilarious max
worst in history
failed 3 subjects
2 of which were my best subjects, which I could score As and Bs for last year
now? nope.
and my worst subject is now my best subject
go figure
anywayyyy
now that I have no more band duties
I probably should concentrate on my academics
(bleh)
switch my focus
(bleh)
yup
haha escaped from my chem periodicity tutorial by telling myself that I gotta get this off my chest
which
I did
and I feel so much more relieved after ranting here hehe
and so
I probably should get back to work hmmmm
yeahhhhhh.
so haha!
hope everything's gonna be fine!
still feels surreal that etude's over
but I had a good time :)
I really did :)
so yay!
I shall...
get back to work
(or start work haha)
bye! :D